It's currently 8 AM and I've been up for the past 3 hours. I couldn't sleep because of the burning pain in my leg. My injury was sustained Monday night in a full-speed, flying attempt to prevent a flying disc from being caught by some guy in Milford. Said guy did, in fact, catch the disc...much to my dismay. I tried to bandage it yesterday, but the wound sticks to the bandage and causes all kinds of pain (not to mention preventing it from healing).

Pictures coming soon!

Also....did I really just write a blog entry about the disgusting festering wound on my leg? Whatever. Maybe it's the first part in the series on "How my leg got amputated".

So I've been really spiffing things up around here. The latest addition is the RSS feed. It's interesting to add an RSS feed, because on the one hand it lets people know when I've updated the site, and even see the post, as soon as I post it. So it makes it easier for people to read the site. But on the other hand, it kind of makes it so that people only view when there's an update. Oh who am I kdding, see #NobodyReadsThisSite.

Anyways, I've also added the 'see all' view of the blog, to compliment the front page which only shows the latest 5 entries. There have been a great number of behind the scenes tidying and fixing, most of which nobody should really notice but which make me feel good about myself and the site.

But of course the coolest thing is the DHTML to add a comment. Go ahead, click the 'add a comment' link....I dare ya!

I've cleaned up this website a bit. The major change is that the main page now uses <div>s instead of <table>s to layout the content. Although this seems like a meaningless change, and you can probably not tell any difference (assuming there's anyone out there; 'ECHO! echo...echo...echo...') (on second thought, I know Emily is there because she left a cute comment about being my online stalker).

I've also gotten rid of all the mumbo-jumbo on the comments page which didn't work anyways.

I also replaced the weird quote that has been up for a while. In the interest of editorial impartiality, I had left it up....and hoped that someone would come through and replace it. Well since all of you slackers couldn't pull it off, I was left to replace it myself.

Anyways, the biggest changes are yet to come! Look out!

I think the reason I could never work at Google or Apple is that I don't have the self esteem for it. I simply don't believe I'm good enough. It's the same reason that the really pretty girls never get talked to by anyone. Out of my league. But that doesn't stop google from getting 1,300 résumés per day.

Everyone says, of course, that if you want to change, the first thing you have to change about yourself is your attitude. I think it's bull. How can I change my attitude? Simply 'thinking happy thoughts' isn't going to cut it here.

I feel like I'm 'squeaking by' at my job. I think I spend half of my time fixing mistakes that I made. I really wish I had a sweet website with all kinds of cool features and information. Instead I have this monstrosity. Actually, I bet my website doesn't appreciate me talking about it like that...

So why not? I think the real answer is 'why'? Here's a rehash of past crap, but the fact is that I don't really feel inspired to create a better website. I'm the only one who cares. I mean, I fixed it when it was going to spam bot hell, but that's about it. I'll mow the grass, but who would I be planting the flowers for?

And THAT'S why I could never work at Google. Because I don't capital L-O-V-E love programming the way that I 'should'. I can do it, and I don't mind doing it. I even enjoy it at times. But I don't love it enough to slog through the quirks of CSS to make an ultimatic website.

Of course, no one likes posts like this. They don't make anyone feel good, they don't accomplish anything. They're like the personal ads on craigslist "I'm lonely, please be my friend". Who wants any of THAT.